I just typed an email to my mum, telling her about my first day back in school (this week) and sharing with her some of my random thoughts on how I hope to grow as a person and student this semester.
For me, Semester 1 was a tough one, in terms of settling into hall, picking up something challenging as a CCA, and juggling academic responsibilities. I constantly felt perched on a balancing beam, still surviving with every step I took, yet constantly aware of the dangers if I ever lost my concentration, and, fell. Also, a calf strain for a month thwarted my hopes of improving on my running timings, and a high fever right smack in the middle of my two most important papers during the final exams caused me some heartache indeed. Challenges I met and voiced out to almost every other individual were surprisingly also matched by their own individual difficulties – be it their own academic worries, some similar health pet peeve, or something else that would garner reciprocal sympathy. To put things simply, everyone had their similar fair share of issues, be it our hopes and dreams, our joys and sorrows.
What got me through, then, were indeed all the people I opened up to, whether they were living on my floor, living in my block, or living in other blocks. Whether we exchanged problems or celebrations, affinity was forged via every conversation, and the sheer knowledge that someone else could at least have a hint of what you were feeling, be it happiness or sadness, was tempting enough to make you want to constantly htht (refer to darren’s post for elaboration) everyday. And of course, this could take place at any time of the day, believe me or not, there is 24 hour watch on your msn list, with some who sleep in the night, and maybe many more, that sleep in the day. If you think htht was all that counted, you are wrong. Many a times, actions spoke louder than words. On the night that my fever was hitting right home, 38.6 degrees, it was only discovered because one of my block papas (beard papa hahaha- my fave btw!) Zeya and mama Tina Beh knocked on my door and patiently waited for stubborn me (I don’t see doctors) to come out of hiding. Upon recognising the possibility of brain damage, and thinking of the heavily adverse impact on my CAP that sem, I reluctantly allowed myself to follow Zeya’s instructions to go see the doctor. With his capable mobilisation (which shall also be proven in fwoc :D), he got me a red speedy ambulance – Sean Liew’s red sports car, and paramedic Beng Tatt. Haha. They even let me sit in front (because they didn’t want me to pass them the ‘disease’ during the weekend of exams L ) But hey, considering how that particular time was awesome critical time for cramming for papers on the coming Monday, they were instead taking a drive to clementi instead (at a time like this, not relaxing at all). At the doc, Zeya even followed me into the Consultation Room, which made the whole situation even more domestic and family-ish. In half an hour, I was back in my room, with some really reliable medicine and a very warm heart. I think the latter was also a remedy to my ‘disease’.
Thank goodness, it worked.
It was often your friends whom you had chosen to trust in hall, those you knew you could always depend on, that made the difference.
Because of the positive experience, I’m excited to make new friendships every time, because I believe that there is something special in each and every of these 500 plus hallmates, that can touch you in one way in another. It doesn’t need to be so mind-sweeping and breathtaking as in the case of sharing some awesome big goal in life with you. Sometimes it just needs to be a midnight run, a stony breakfast, a post-stick, a smile, a helping hand to open the front door and the basic recognition of your existence that helps you get through that particular, unknown difficult phase in your life, which eventually makes up your undoubtedly trying, but super awesome fulfilling stay here in KR.
How I hope to grow as a person and student this semester, is then not through my own efforts, but on the others, whom I count on.
Have a good February everyone, F for friendships as well yay:D
Mighty long post, Meiyi:D